my hopes are up.
We all know I have issues with the Pink Fluffy Brain Goo. It takes over any rational, logical part of my mind and then all of a sudden everything is all *SWOON* …. yeah.
I feel like I’ve been getting better about all of this. Not letting crushes over take my life and all. But I’ve got to admit, my hopes are definitely up right now. And I’m not sure I can jump high enough to get a hold of them.
I like Jaron. He was the last guy on The List. And I like him. He loathes cilantro, would prefer tomatoes and mushrooms not to be included, can enjoy a movie for the sake that it’s a movie and not get caught up in petty details, owns two adorable cats, sends me kitteh videos, writes amazingly long email responses to my amazingly long emails, shares similar values as I do, is very open and comfortable about being open… and he’s cute. And I like him.
There’s a couple things though. Jaron doesn’t live in Chicago. And I haven’t seen him in about 5 years. So as much as I like him, I’m nervous.
He and I have both changed since we were in college together. This doesn’t bother me too much, mainly because we’ve talked more now than we probably did in college. We’re getting along great online. Which is why my hope is so high. But I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t worried about a possible lack of chemistry offline. We’re basing everything so far on pixels. It’s just emails and IMs and whatever pictures we find when we’re stalking each other.
But even if there is offline, real world chemistry, I then have to deal with the fact we’re not in the same city. It’s a four hour train ride just to get to a city close to him, and then have to have him pick me up if I were to visit. He’s not that far away, but he’s still not here.
He’s coming to visit. A week from tomorrow, he’s coming to visit. Only for a weekend. But I’ll take it. I’m excited. He’s excited. (He’s told me, and that kicks ass.)
I like him. And he’s coming to visit. And my hopes are definitely up with this one.
January 28th, 2010 at 5:45 pm
Omg. Giggle. Squeal.
How fun-hope you guys have a great weekend!
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January 28th, 2010 at 5:49 pm
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January 28th, 2010 at 6:13 pm
Good luck doll!
My last two major relationships (ie long term) were with guys I spoke with mostly online. Meeting for the first time is nerve wracking for sure!
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January 28th, 2010 at 10:23 pm
I’ve met a lot of guys online, and I’ve never been this nervous. I don’t know if it’s just the shared history and reconnecting or what…
Also, I LOVE your URL. seriously! can’t wait to check out your site!
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January 28th, 2010 at 6:27 pm
Awww! How cute! I hope all goes well. I’ve been in that situation so I understand the excitement as well as frustration.
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January 28th, 2010 at 10:23 pm
Thanks! Fingers are definitely crossed.
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January 28th, 2010 at 6:49 pm
MY friend Chatty, is the debbie downer. The rest of us get super excited but she’s always there to remind us about how it can always crash and burn. Well…the point is yes. It can crash and burn…but at EVERY STAGE it can crash and burn. so are we just never supposed to enjoy the butterflies bc it may end at some point?
i say fuck it. enjoy those damn butterflies and swoon to your heart’s content.
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January 28th, 2010 at 10:26 pm
LOVE THIS. Seriously.
I’m gonna swoon swoon swoon! Luckily Jaron’s already told me that his ego is designed as such that it can keep expanding without (much) risk of ’sploding.
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January 28th, 2010 at 7:25 pm
This is so exciting, I hope we’re going to get to hear all the details!
Good luck!
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January 28th, 2010 at 10:27 pm
haha, no worries. As long as Jaron’s comfortable with it, I’ll be sharing…
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January 29th, 2010 at 12:54 pm
lol that’s exactly where i was at the beginning of the month, and im still there. luckily, online chemistry translated to offline, and things are still going strong… try to focus more on the fun, less on the distance. one hurdle at a time
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January 29th, 2010 at 1:00 pm
aww! That’s awesome for you!
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January 29th, 2010 at 3:38 pm
I am linking you.
I may or may not have a girl crush on you.
Carrie´s last blog ..The Sleepover.
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January 29th, 2010 at 4:15 pm
I may or may not have squealed at that.
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February 2nd, 2010 at 12:41 pm
oh, distance isn’t anything if you really feel something amazing for each other. i met my boyfriend online, we didn’t have the pleasure of knowing each other from earlier on in our lives. he lived in new york city, i lived in tucson, arizona. that’s a 6-7 hour plane ride on a good day. i took the chance and moved in with him after he flew out to meet me in arizona and we’ve been together for 2 years. i’m really glad i didn’t let the distance keep us apart.
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February 2nd, 2010 at 1:56 pm
I like him already ’cause he’s like you, hehe. The way you talked sounds similar to my boyfriend and I – and we’re great together. So my hopes are high that this works for you. =)
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